Kevin Writes Mia

Hope things are going well with you. Celeste is gone until Sunday. I’m planning on visiting my friends in Portland soon, this is one of those days I’d send you a “Where were those gorgeous pictures taken when you went on your trip?” text messages. I really miss the little things about our friendship Mia.

I noticed you stopped following my photography Instagram account. That made me sad. I don’t know if you need this level of separation because you just don’t want to be reminded of our friendship or because you have decided to hate me. There is nothing I can do about either so I go forward and continue to hope you’ll allow me the chance to prove what your friendship means to me. In the mean time I will continue to make my own strides. I’ve come far out of the darkness in a short time and will only continue to do so whether you decide to contact me or make good on your promise at the end of my sentence.  For forcing me to take a good hard look at myself, I owe you thanks.

Work Sleep Work. You know this routine yourself I know. Kind of a quiet night of meditation. It’s quiet here but windy. I’m wondering how you are. Well I hope.

Today has been a good Sunday. Took the holiday tree down and the lights on the house finally. Picked up Bronn from the vet. Poor guy. Celeste asked if I’d heard from you lately. (Yes, really). I said no and she replied “Well, give her time, she is a woman after all and while I cannot speak for her, I know I would need time.” I often wonder if this is as hard for you as it is for me. I go back and forth, but when my mind settles, I realize it must be. I miss you. I’m afraid I’m forgetting what your voice sounds like sometimes.

Today is the 6 month anniversary of the Dallas Police Shooting. It doesn’t seem that long ago. You said you “felt safe” with me there and was glad I had been with you. Protection comes in so many forms. I don’t think I understood that some forms are not always appreciated. This was the mistake I made with you and slowly began realizing only days before our talk. We learn from our mistakes and grow and so I am. I upgraded my phone to a 7+ today. Excited to try out the camera stuff. Never been excited about a phone camera before. Heading to a friend’s birthday thing in a short while. Should prove to be a good time.

It snowed! (I bet you knew that…) 🙂 Work let out early and I came home. Currently sipping Scotch and reading. Yay Friday night! I had asked MINI to keep an eye out for another Roadster and I might be interested. They found one, great price, miles but… the color… I was thinking about a link you sent to me a few years ago during a snowstorm. I believe I still lived at the loft. Guy had taken his drone out over Dallas and it was a gorgeous video. Went looking for it but came up empty. Bronn is in the vet hospital overnight.

Today was a good day, work was quiet and I got quite a bit caught up. I also heard on the contract and excellent news there. The contract won’t require travel, all secure remote and I can do it from here. I had to lower my bid once they made the remote a possibility but still a good deal. Still on track to pay things off. I texted you last night. You didn’t reply. I’m not sure what I expected but I’m concerned the package never made it because of the holidays. I suppose NYE was a fluke, an exception for the holiday but I appreciated it. It also occurred to me that you might be blocking my number and I’d never know! I could just be babbling to the ether. I went to South Arlington last night to help a friend stranded on the side of I-20. It’s getting so cold!

Today wasn’t bad. We are losing a lot of good talent at work but that was bound to happen. The issues from last week finally settled. Met some friends for dinner downtown and then desert and came home. Pretty normal day.

Two weeks ago at this time we were sitting at City Tavern. It seems like a year ago. The holidays are over and things are getting back to normal at work. I saw an Instagram post of yours with Mushu, I hope she is well. I always worry about her but never tell you because I know you worry too. Bronn and Ghost are staring at me while I write this.

This weather is amazing and scary. So nice out! I miss your face. That’s about all today. I re-added you on Instagram because I think it’s dumb not to be connected after all the time we’ve known each other. I’m dumb.