Kevin Writes Mia

It has been a relatively quiet day. I’m heading home before drum class tonight in order to finish a camera baldric I was commissioned for. Kind of like a three point harness. Out of the ordinary for me but it has been a fun challenge. I still wonder sometimes how your cousin liked the one we made together. Never did hear.

Good Monday. I’ve been cooking at home extremely often, as I’m doing now. I’m also beginning to train again. I realized not long ago that the depression, lack of running and spiral into dark places all began around the time of my surgery. I do not believe the surgery caused it but a lot of things, like eating habits, running, etc, did change. I’m happy I’m moving past it. I wish you were in my life to see it.

Opening faire weekend went well overall. There were many changes this year, new management, no king for the first time in 28 years, the fire, etc. Still a great time. I keep expecting to come around the corner and see you there. Ridiculous I realize, it’s not your thing but the thought persisted all weekend. I guess I just miss you.

The first day of faire was a little bit strange for me. I have no explanation really, it just felt off. Other than that, it was a good day. Dinner with friends I have not seen since last year was great and I’m driving home now. I can see downtown Dallas in the distance.

Finally Friday. Faire begins tomorrow. I wonder if you’ve seen advertising for it or maybe heard about the fire a few weeks ago. I’m a bit worn out but in good spirits. I’m in good spirits most of the time these days. So many changes in three months. I hope you are somewhere sipping Scotch tonight!

I had a lengthy conversation with Shaina a few weeks ago and another tonight. She is a completely different person. It’s uncanny. She separated from Sara and the toxicity that Sara provided. It reminded me of us. I was toxic to you in some ways. I am so sorry it took me so long to realize what I was doing. I’m on a good path now. I won’t be part of Help Portrait next year if Sara is running it but I will be helping with Shaina’s event. I hope that if you still live here, you’ll be there with me.

Took today off to get the trailer up to the fairgrounds. Much better spot than last year. I don’t know if you remember but it basically sunk into the mud and I had to bring the generator out there last year.

I keep hoping you will reach out. I somehow know that you are happy and doing very well and that makes me happy. I know that might be hard to believe considering who I was and December in before. I am no longer that person and while I am not yet the person I’m striving to be, I have made great advances on the path.

Great day for a Monday. Productive at work, haircut and dinner with friends. Finishing up some orders and shutting down my ETSY shop. Your camera straps sell very well. I should pay you a royalty!

Pretty relaxed day. I slept almost 10 hours. I got up and went over to Jessica’s house to help her with more things on the house but ended up buying her a washer and dryer because her ex is an asshole. I also found some things out about him today that I am still processing.