Today Shelton posted one of those “memories” on Facebook. Eight years we’ve been friends. Through a ton of crap and we’ve always communicated. Bennett and I, same thing except 20 years. Through marriages and heartbreak and arguments and short bouts of being upset with one another. But we always communicated. I guess I feel like you threw away four years of friendship in a 30 minute conversation without much explanation other than “If I want a chance with…” I am not blaming you at all, far from it. I own my mistakes and as I’ve said I learned from them but I don’t understand why you couldn’t have just said “You are being a shitty friend and I need you to fix it, I need your support.” I would have worked on it for you. I would have done anything to make our friendship better. I did not realize what I was doing to you, I admit that I was ignorant. I wish you would have just said something rather than walking away. I know you said “six months” but I have a feeling you have no intention of honoring that and it kills me. I love you and your absent friendship is a hole in my heart. Apologies if that seems mad. I’m not, I’m just frustrated that you wouldn’t give me a few answers before running away.
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